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To the one named after God’s grace and an angel…

Having children brought out a crazy, fierce, protective nature in me. I wanted more than anything to protect you. To shield you from pain. Then and only then would you know how dearly you were loved and cherished. I still to this day am shocked that God chose me to be a mom. Not just any mom, but your mom! You were born with such exquisite beauty. People would stop me just to comment on how gorgeous you were. I wanted to say “I know, can you believe she’s mine?” but I would just smile and say thank you. I used to make a mental list each night before I fell asleep, did I spend enough time with you, read to you enough? Did we do enough? Was I enough? As you grew, I saw this amazing person forming. An artist, a brilliant thinker, a natural leader. The pied-piper of life. I delight in thinking about what a care-free spirit you were!

Then came the tumultuous years. You know. I don’t want or need to remind you. You’ve beat yourself up enough. But I wonder if you know, really know, that you were worth every ounce of struggle? Every tear I shed was not shed in regret, but in pain. Your pain is my pain. Your struggle is my struggle. By choice, my darling girl. You were worth every minute of lost sleep, every prayer, every everything. You still are, always will be. And as life tries to throw a cloak of shame and regret on you, I will continue to stand sentinel with a box of matches to set the shame on fire. You struggle to be independent, to be on your own. What you don’t know yet but will discover when you become a mom is, where you go, I go. Not in body, no it’s much deeper than that. It’s my heart. It willingly goes with you. Into the darkest forest, the fiercest storm, the longest night. To shield you, to light a match, to walk with you so you are never alone. I encompass you with my prayers and have seen how mightily they have been answered. I’ve seen the hand of God on your life over and over again. What you don’t realize is that you are a living miracle. Created with perfect intent and purpose. And a fierce one at that.

So when you said you didn’t believe in God anymore, my heart didn’t leap to fear. Because I know what it’s like to love you. To be so madly in love with you child. I know what it’s like to wait for you to come home. The eager anticipation of your return. I know what it’s like when you turn your full attention to me, really engaging in the moment. I know the joy you bring. The laughter, the smiles. I know what it’s like to love you first, before you were capable of thought, I adored you. And I know the prodigal son always returns. The story never changes. I don’t want you to return to me or for me. I want you to run into Your Father’s arms. To the one who made you so wondrously. To the One who taught me to love you so. If I, with my completely flawed heart can love you so much, I can’t even imagine how much God the Father loves you but I do know it’s perfectly. He took the time to put so much extra into you. So much. When He makes someone with so much, you had better believe they have an amazing purpose. I want so much for you to know that.

Since your revelation our language has become stunted. The water that flowed so freely now feels like hot lava. What do I say? What will drive you away?  Is there anything I can say to draw you closer to the throne? Harder still is to say nothing. Danger seems to lurk in the nothing. You precious child, I adore you so. But if this is what it takes, for you to travel miles from home, to a faraway land, to know, really know in your heart that your Father was for you all along then I want you to know I will be waiting at your homecoming party. Your Father stands on the hill and awaits your return. He is waiting to run to you with His arms wide open. To throw His cloak over your shoulders, to put His signet ring on your beautiful hand. To show you, you are His and He claims you no matter where you’ve been or how far away you’ve traveled. To throw a party in honor of your return. I will be there! I anticipate your return with almost as much joyful excitement and anticipation as He does. Almost.

 

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The price of forgiveness

Matthew 6:15 [Full Chapter] but if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

Years ago, I had a falling out with a friend. Not just a casual friend but a close, speak to almost everyday, love them like family, friend. It was more like they fell out and I was left wondering what had happened. They made some choices to change their life and I was one of the casualties. I didn’t want to be part of their drama but I wanted to keep my friendship, so it stung. This was one person I thought I would be friends with my entire life. The one friend I truly trusted. I thought they would get past the crisis of their own making and we would be friends again. Of course we would be friends, they were my family. That’s not at all what happened. Not only did we not speak again but I found myself kind of hating this person. I had stuck up for them, remained loyal to them and had been their biggest defender. Then they became involved with some people who didn’t want them to have other close friends and poof, that was that. What a turd. I tried for a long time to convince myself that the friendship had just run it’s course, better if we didn’t speak, blah, blah, blah, but the truth is, you can’t choose someone’s ugly.

I’d moved on until recently when this person’s name was brought up on several different occasions by different people assuming we were still friends. Every time I heard their name, it was a scratchy tag on my neck. A wool sweater in July. So I did what all sweet Christians do and prayed for them halfheartedly. Then their name was brought up again and I prayed the least amount of words I could get away with to form a legible sentence. When they got brought up the third time, I complained about them, prayed for them and actually asked God if He could have someone else pray for them. Hey man, sanctification is a process. I don’t want to think about them. It wasn’t until I was having a conversation about forgiveness last night that I realized what God had been trying to show me all along, I don’t forgive them. They hurt me. I loved this person like family. There was no big fight, no smack-down in the 7-11 parking lot, no exchange of words, it just was a friendship and then it wasn’t. I was angry that they got to make the decision for both of us. I didn’t know until last night that I needed to just forgive them. Forgiveness is a big gun. You don’t just whip it out and point it at someone. Forgiveness is God’s territory. I always think that saying I need to forgive someone is ridiculous considering where I’ve been. So true forgiveness is just not something I can wrap my head around. The word forgiveness has been tossed around so much in Christianity, beaten and battered until it’s hard to recognize and even harder to implement. What does it really mean? Is it the saying my dad always used to quote?

“Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.”

Is that forgiveness? Letting go of anger? This isn’t a balloon launch to commemorate a special day. I can’t stuff my hurt into a paper skin, light a match and watch it float away. People say the funniest things. Let go and let God. Well, that would be great if I wasn’t so busy being annoyed trying to figure out how to do that. I don’t want to be a hypocrite wanting Jesus to forgive me entirely but only want to go halfway when forgiving someone else. The price of forgiveness in this situation? I can no longer be a victim to this circumstance. Forgiving them means I can no longer be the injured party. To give up my right to tell people who ask that the fault is not my own or at least imply that it wasn’t. I don’t want to be the villain in this story. I want them to be. Let’s just be honest. When someone does you wrong, don’t you want people to know? To at least let people know it wasn’t your fault? I do. I don’t want people thinking I’m responsible for someone else’s train wreck. I wanted sympathy for this lost friendship and I got it, but it never brought my friend back.

Now I can look back and see that I’m glad this friendship has ended. I didn’t want to go where they went, still don’t. Their rabbit hole was not something God wanted me to fall into. But I do forgive them for rejecting me. For allowing others to dictate to them who they should and should not be friends with. I forgive them for not wanting to be my family anymore. If I did them an unknown wrong, I hope they forgive me too. I know in time I will mean that 100% and not just 99%. I’ve been holding onto that 1%, hiding it in a drawer just in case I need it. If I run into someone else that asks me about my                   not-friend I might miss it if I gave it up. Then again, Jesus is too good to me to withhold even that 1% from Him or from others. Giving up my right to be right means I don’t get to fly the victim flag anymore or wear it like a shawl or break it out on special occasion like a heirloom tablecloth. I think I’ll take a page out of my not-friend’s play book. One day there was no forgiveness and the next there was.

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Facebook Christianity

I’m pretty tired of social media right now. Can you relate? You go on to pass the time, catch up with friends, because you are bored. BOOM, 5 minutes later you’re angry or at least seriously annoyed.  When did the world become such a harsh place? Even worse, sometimes I can’t distinguish between Christian friends and people who claim no religion. People get caught up in the frenzy and they just WON’T LET GO. Sometimes, I want to engage in word warfare too. When someone posts anti-Christian sentiments or rails against God. I want to defend God. You can’t talk about my best friend like that! I want to chastise the haters and set the misinformed straight. I have to stop and ask myself at what cost? A true atheist isn’t mad at God. They don’t believe He exists in any form. That would be like me going on Facebook to say crappy things about a unicorn. I don’t talk about unicorns because they aren’t real. So if someone is ranting about Christians and God on Facebook, I consider it a call to pray for them.  You can’t be mad at someone who you truly think does not exist. Their raw and angry heart wants you to fight back to give them one more reason to be justified in their anger at Christians, God, religion.

I know a lady who is an agnostic. She does not know many Christians and some of the few she knows have left a bad taste in her mouth. Recently, a family member of hers who claims to be a Christian and who has many times over the years “witnessed” to her, got angry at her and posted a picture of an ugly animal with the caption “this is what I think of when I think of (insert the agnostic woman’s name here)”. Say it isn’t so. We are the light of the world and the World Wide Web. At least we are supposed to be. If we want people to come to know and love Jesus then every word counts. You can’t post “Praying for you” one minute and and insult someone the next. One Facebook rant can undo all that you’ve done to bring someone to Christ. She won’t remember what you said about Christ but she will never forget you comparing her to an ugly beast for all the world to see.

Can you imagine what the Pharisees would have written on Jesus’ Facebook wall? His Twitter? I imagine them sitting in the glow of their computer screen trying to craft a clever zing in Jesus’ direction. They would have tried to trap Him in word combat. 20,000,000 followers would wait, holding their breath to see what His response would be. E-magazines would be building up hype, people would be ready to take a side. Are willing to sacrifice their agnostic hearts to further your cause? Do we really need to make our opinions so known? I don’t think that is what Jesus would want. He alone knew the hearts of those He spoke to and the exact right thing to say. So how do we govern our responses?

1 Corinthians 13:1-3 (ESV) The Way of Love                                                                                            13 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love. Humble, agape love. Paul said it best, if you don’t have love, you’ve got a whole bunch of nothing. When God first touched my heart with the knowledge of changing my speech, I thought the best way to tone it down was maybe not swear so much when I decimated someone with my words. I can actually remember feeling pretty proud that I fought with my husband and didn’t swear. No rocket scientist here. The swear words may have been gone but the intention was not. Jesus in His infinite kindness didn’t give up on me. First He taught me to curb my speech, then salt it a little, and years later I learned the best lesson of all. Silence(still practicing that one). I do not need to join the word combat army. There is a time and place for all things, but love is for all times and all places.

When I see posts that really get to me, I understand now that I am a warrior. A prayer warrior. Never praying that people change their minds to think like me but to know God’s love. Only He knows their business, their struggles and how their thoughts are formed. Let’s follow Jesus. Let’s go the way of love and bite our tongues and exercise our control muscles. Let’s set down our clanging cymbals and noisy gongs. That’s all words are when used against someone and not for them. I want to pray more and speak less. Words are God’s currency, a gift from Him and should flow through us and return to Him untarnished.

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Guest blogger – Makenzie Adams

Single. And a single Christian at that. Some would call this a blessing. A time to explore my options about what I want from life, what God wants from my life, what career paths I should be looking into, and scoping out my dating options. Others would call it a curse.  A time of loneliness and too much over thinking about what to wear when getting asked out by a friend of a friend of a friend who you’ve never actually met before. A time of impatient waiting for “the right one” to come along. A time when people ask about your love life and you reply with the answer you’ve said for 25 months now. “Nothing new here. Just me. Just waiting on God and His timing”. You see, I thought I found my person when I was 17. But one broken heart and engagement later, and God has taken us down different paths. So I would have to say it’s been both a blessing and a curse.

A blessing because yes, I have been able to seek Jesus in a way that I hadn’t before. It’s been a time of loneliness that has taught my heart to run recklessly after the One who never leaves me. A time of self reflecting and praying about what kind of wife I want to be, and praying for my future husband. A time of prayer and opening my heart up wide and asking God to just pour out more of Him. This time of singlehood has given me more opportunities to be completely real, openly honest and utterly raw, not only with myself, but with Jesus.

But this singleness has also had its fair share of struggles. How am I supposed to find time to date when I’m working, going to school full time, commuting back and forth from school, completing homework, attending church, getting up early for 5 am workouts, participating at church, and trying to have something that resembles a social life? How do I find the time to meet someone? How on earth does a girl like me find a decent way to date and stay true to her beliefs in the age of casual dating, Tinder and nonchalant hookups? (No judgement here, it’s just not my style). I’ve never been one for casual dating. Not in high school, and not now. I’ve always considered myself to be a total commitment kind of girl. I’ve always figured that once I chose someone, once I knew God had said “Yep, that’s the one”, that would be that. How do I know when God is saying yes? It all feels very confusing, and so at the end of the day, I try not to think about what I end up thinking about the most: my singleness.

Another struggle that comes with being single is having non-single friends. Married friends, friends in relationships. Most days, I really don’t mind being a third (even on occasion, a fifth) wheel to my married friends. I thoroughly enjoy watching God work in the lives of my friends and their marriages, and it makes me look forward to my own marriage and how God will use us.

But what about the now? What about the days when I can’t ignore the loneliness anymore, the longing to have my person by my side? The want for a partner to just do life with? What about the Friday nights where I’ve just finished another three hours of homework and have to start the mountain of laundry I haven’t gotten to because the week has been nuts, and I really just want to be going on a date, with my person, like my friends are doing? What about the Sunday mornings at church where I used to have my person by my side, but now there’s nothing but empty air next to me in the pew and my friends are sitting side by side with their spouses? What about the times when you least expect bitterness to strike and it does?

I thought I would be married by now, or at least planning a wedding to my person. But for reasons God has revealed and reasons God has kept a mystery, I have become single.

A lot of times people will tell you how great it is to be single. And there are many perks to being single, I agree. But what no one really talks about is the loneliness that comes along with it sometimes. The bitterness that can seep into your heart because you’re questioning God’s timing. It’s a difficult road to travel, being single. I want so much to be within God’s will, yet I push my own. I want so much to want God’s timing over my own, yet I complain about how long He’s taking. I deeply desire to be equally yoked with my future partner, yet I don’t take the time I should to pray for him. It’s a cycle and it loops with each rising and setting of the sun. Mostly, at the end of the day, the Holy Spirit gives me two thoughts.

One: I am not alone. Matthew 28:20 is where Jesus said “And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”  In the throes of my pity party of loneliness, Jesus is there, nurturing and guiding my wounded heart.

Two: I have a hope and future. Jeremiah 29:11 says: ‘“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” At the end of the day, Jesus is my hope, and He is my future. At the end of the day, I lay my confused and weary soul down at the foot of the cross and Jesus breathes gentle healing on my aching heart.

And so while being single may feel like the biggest obstacle in my life right now, I know that God’s got it. And if God is for me, there is no ocean of struggle wide enough, no depth of loneliness deep enough, no mountain of doubt high enough, no valley of frustration low enough, that could stand against me. Praise You, Jesus. Praise You.

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Fierce Christian Women

Years ago, at our church, there was a small select group of women that pretty much did everything. A lot of times it goes like that. You’ve heard the saying 20% of the people do 80% of the work. This was different though. They didn’t actually want help. Several women offered to help for upcoming events and they would get turned down. I don’t think they meant to be exclusive but that’s how it came off. I was one of the people that tried to volunteer. I was trying to make Christian friends and instead I felt shut out. Years later God has sifted and shifted our church and what remains is amazing. We do Women’s Bible Study on Mondays. A few years back, we were doing a particular study and we decided to have everyone give their testimony. Two or three women would stand up each week before we began and tell the story of their life. It was incredible. I had known these women for years but it wasn’t until I heard their stories that I really understood them. Stories of incredible pain, abuse, grief and ultimately, through the grace of God, victory. I already knew I liked all these women, truly liked them, but after hearing about the pieces of their journey, I was amazed and inspired by them. Lots of tears and laughter came from that time. I consider it a sacred gift from God that I got to experience that with them. Since then, I can honestly say, every one of us has bonded with the others. I can’t express to you what these women mean to me. They cheer me on, encourage me, pray over and for me. I know my prayer requests will be met with an onslaught of fierce women charging the gates of heaven on my behalf and I on theirs. What God has done is miraculous. A small preview of a heavenly community. Believer’s coming together to praise, worship and adore the one who loves us so dearly, He died for us.

We are all as real as it gets. No one tries to be the perfect christian. We have no need for pretenses. We bring it all. The ugly, the pain and the praise. By being able to be ourselves, we have found freedom in this perfection seeking world. I used to wonder why I couldn’t be the (almost) perfect christian since God was perfect. He deserves a much better daughter than me. But me, is who I am. After getting to know these fierce, incredible, christian women, I realize we all have areas that have yet to be sanctified. Not because I noticed that about them, it’s actually the opposite. They would say that about themselves and I would think, “No way”! I desperately needed their honesty to stop the cycle of self-condemnation. Had they pretended to be the perfect Christians, I would have believed that I was hopeless and the only one to struggle in my walk.

We take a break between each completed Bible study and I miss them, their fellowship. I miss the laughter and the tears. They are so precious to me, I can’t even imagine how this group must touch the heart of God. Oh, I still get to see them on Sundays, but still. I wish you went to my church. I would love to hear every fierce woman’s story, to get to know you for who you actually are and not who you think you should be. To hear your testimony. To pray for you and to love you like they have loved me, in spite of me. Isn’t that the exact kind of love Jesus was talking about when He said in John 13:34-35 A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.” that we love one another in spite of our flaws and imperfections? People who come to our church recognize right away the love we have for one another. They always comment how everyone is so nice and the best part of it for me is that it is 100% genuine. Now when we have an event, the majority of ladies say “what can I bring, how can I help?” Every one working together, no exceptions, no exclusions. A keyhole peek into eternity.

Proverbs 27:17  Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.

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Where am I LORD?

Grief is a crazy thing. Everyone handles it so differently. Even the circumstances leading up to the death of a loved one profoundly affects how grief plays out. I’m no expert in grieving, these are just observations. To one words spoken, heal. To another they don’t want to talk about it. To me, I can’t seem to find myself in the midst of this grief. I wonder if this short tempered, grey, full of regret person, is the new me. I shudder to think I may be stuck like this. It’s natural to lose your dad at some point. But I’m left with an ocean of regret. It’s a long story, a two and a half year story, but it always ends the same. My dad was dying after complications from surgery but no one could correctly diagnose him. Turns out, what he likely died from is not detectable. So we watched him suffer day after day and I tried to “fix” him. “Dad, just try to eat better. Just use your spirometer more. You’re not eating any of the food I brought.” These conversations play out in my mind daily because the one thing we realized after his death is that he couldn’t have done any of the things I asked. His likely cause of death was micro embolisms due to 40 inches of blood clots that had formed in his legs after the surgery that successfully removed the cancer from his lungs. He didn’t die from the grapefruit sized tumor, but from a slow suffocation. I spent months trying to cheerlead someone into doing more and trying harder. I operated entirely out of fear. Fear of his death, fear of failing him, God, myself. In the end I’m left not even knowing what I’m grieving. I hate to break it to myself but my dad is completely fine now. Whole, happy and in perfect peace and love, worshiping Jesus without human pain, shame or hurt for the very first time.  So while I miss him everyday, I’m also happy for him. I’m also grieving my choice of words. Why was I constantly asking him to do stuff? Because I desperately wanted him to recover. I wanted my dad back. When you go through two and a half years helping to take care of someone, you want a pay off. You want them to go back to who they were. Or something, anything like it. I’m also grieving the fact that I may have grieved the Holy Spirit in my fear-fueled state. I worried from the time I got up until I went to bed. What if the power went out and his oxygen went off? What if he fell trying to take the dog out? What if the doctors are missing something? Well, he did fall going outside because he took his oxygen off (3 times!), the doctors totally missed what was going on with him and God showed up in a big way every time.  A neighbor who just happened to be outside when he fell all 3 times? I don’t think so. That’s a grace filled God providing, but still fear attacked my mind like a flesh eating virus. I begged God to deliver me every morning on my way to his house before work. Every time I walked into his house and called out “Good morning Dad!” and he would answer “Ain’t nobody here but us chickens!” relief would wash over me only to start again as I drove away. I would then go at it all over again asking God to deliver me from the crippling fear. I didn’t want to find him if he died. I begged God not to let me be the one. I didn’t want it to be my sister either but I was terrified it would be me. After months of begging God to protect me from that on August 25th I told God “OK, if it has to be me, please help me”. And he did. On August 26th, 2016 I drove to my dad’s house as always before work  and as I pulled up I saw that his front door was open. At first I was worried but then I thought, maybe he remembers it’s my birthday! I walked up to the glass screen door and saw him laying on the ground. The neighbor “just happened” to be outside again. I screamed for him, and he came running. He said “I’m sorry, he’s gone” I asked him “Can you check again because it’s my birthday”.  I have no idea why I said that. But I do know that I was delivered from my fear that day. The thing I feared the most had happened and I lived. I kept breathing, the world didn’t collapse. God was there with me providing exactly what (or who) I needed. He didn’t leave me or forsake me. He knew before I was ever born that my dad would die on my birthday and He would never hurt me. His purpose is always good and His plan for deliverance isn’t usually easy. That day he delivered my dad out of his physical suffering and me out of my emotional suffering. I think He allowed my Dad to die on my birthday because I needed reminding that He alone is sovereign. My worry added nothing. My fear served no purpose, but having gone through what I was most afraid of, did. Fear is a liar. It convinces you that you cannot do something when God knows that you can. The blessing is often in the burden. So is God. He doesn’t create the burden but He allows it sometimes to show us how dearly He loves us. I know my grief is normal and incomparable to what others have had to go through but still, it’s mine. As I try to figure out who I am now, I don’t want to trade a duffel bag of fear for a mountain of regrets. I don’t want to live in the nothing anymore. The grey area of unbelief. I miss the sun, the glorious Son. I miss hope and life and the stirring of the Holy Spirit. I know it will come again. I wish I could pull it closer to me by sheer will power. I long for Spring in my soul. But grace is God’s alone to give. I live daily by His grace but sometimes you just want an all-you-can-handle buffet of God’s blessings. I don’t want to go back to who I was but I’m still trying to figure out who I am now. Only God knows, and I’m OK with that.

Psalm 121:1-2 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lordthe Maker of heaven and earth.

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Waterfall

To my Redhanded Jill…

Sometimes, life is like standing behind a waterfall. Not in it, but watching it rush down in front of you. Wanting to step out, wanting to know what it feels like to be brave. To be the one who knows what it feels like to stand under the rushing water and feel it pounding down on you. You hesitate, waiting, thinking too much. What if it hurts, what if the pressure is too much? You stretch out your hands and feel the cool water run between your fingers. You climbed slick rocks to get here. Steep rocks that echo the remnants of thousands upon thousands of gallons of ancient water. Water that passed through here never to return and water that that made it back only to be gone again. The rocks tell the story of the others. Other explorers, other adventurers. The others that cannot stand the thought of ordinary and search for the extraordinary. You sat down too many times to count up this rise. You decided not even God himself could move you another inch. “I’m done LORD” you said. You didn’t hear His silent chuckle because He knows you were born for this. He put that pirate heart in you. He let you rest, tend your wounds and when all movement stopped, He whispered “Come child” and you did. Over and over and over again. Here you stand now knowing that there were others who stepped forward into the curtain of coursing waters, the sideways tide. Yet in the back of your mind you know that there were some who came and saw and were so close. So close to stepping out but never did. In these seconds you choose. Your foot never falters as you step out on the ledge. The water pours down on your head, a glorious crown, and you hear the echoes of joy of those who stood where you stand now. It is magnificent and thrilling but there is still that last step to take.To jump or not to jump? Free fall into the watery abyss or be driven back by the same fear that weighed you down the entire way up the mountain.What lies beyond the liquid curtain? “Jump” you tell yourself, “just jump!!”But your frozen feet won’t move and inside that moment lays a thousand days and hours just like before. “Why Lord, why did you bring me here if I can’t do it? Lord, help me! I’m afraid!” Then you remember, you cannot do it. You cannot do it, but He can. Only the maker of the waterfall knows how high He made it. And He does. You meet the wind and and your body feels weightless as your feet lift off. Through, over, down. But this is not descending, this is a mountaintop with God. A rebellion against your human form with the taste of eternity on your lips. You slice through the water with a new name. Brave. You have become one of the others, the ones who dare to believe.

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